My writing

Riddled with epiphanies
And answers never known
Unlocked secret mysteries
With fears that I've outgrown

So much time has passed us now
There's nothing left but truth
No special paths to tell us how
Nor idol given proof

I see now all the things I've lost
And how I broke your heart
But I'll never know just what it cost
For our two souls to part

I can't be me without your love
But you can't stand by my side
So I'll remain this wingless dove
And pray for one more ride.

I know I cannot keep you
Nor live life in our past
But there's one thing that I must do
And kiss this kiss, our last

posted by Stolenswan @ 1:46 PM

As you sleep beside me
And I lie awake in the silence
I focus all my thoughts
and all my heart on you
Without words, or touch, or recognition
I see you
i see you as a child
Dreaming of ideals
and endless summer days
I see you as you grow
A young boy striving to become a man
As you grow and age time does not jade you
You mean more to people than you ever knew
And more to me than I sometimes care to realize.
I see you as an old man
Never regretting the shape your life has taken
Loving the sunlight as much as the rain
And knowing that every thorn has taught you a lesson
Then I find myself back in our room
In our bed
With you asleep by my side once more
I see your whole life in you
And I weep at how beautiful it is
I so long to make you a quilt of your fondest memories
To wrap around you on winter nights
When my kiss cannot destroy the cold
I kiss your eyelids and whisper, "i love you"
in hope that it brings you the sweetest dreams
I rest my head on the rise and fall of your chest
and close my eyes
I dream without a single care, a single worry.
You protect me from everything I fear
You bring me solitude and happiness
Summertime and warmth
Laughter and love.

posted by Stolenswan @ 1:38 PM

The Aluminum Vent
My golden Prince
encloaked by night
Hides himself
forbids my sight
Inside his fortress
i find my peace
And feel my heart
give slow release
I feel your waves
crash on my shore
And kiss me with
those lips that bore
so sweet a song
as never heard
That hushed my voice
with just one word
So retreat to dusk
without a sound
But rest assured
this heart is bound

posted by Stolenswan @ 6:06 AM

In Sleep

I've never touched you
tasted the salt of your skin
Or felt your breath on my neck
as you whisper "I love you"s

But in sleep I do
I am lifted across oceans
And placed beside you
in the bed we'll share

Your body is my temple
to worship and explore
I lean into you
and suck the honey sweet suckle from your lips

My fingers dance along
the rise and fall of your chest
The motion hypnotizes me
and only you can rouse me awake

You touch my trembling hands
And lick each tip so deep
I imagine you can taste my marrow
and I beg you not to stop

The electricity of your skin
finds its way into every part of me
And warms the palces in me
once ice ridden and cold

Our heat is unbelievable
Pushing me to the edge of all that I am
You say the words that I long to hear
together we are eternal

And at that moment I awake
No longer in your loving arms
Just an empty shell of a woman
I need you to make me whole.

posted by Stolenswan @ 8:53 AM

Sunnydale
I leave my light on for you
A beacon of hope to guide you through the dark
You feel me call to your nature
From atop this cast iron hill
You've climbed higher but still regard this as your greatest feat
You approach my peak and come inside
It's so much warmer than you thought
Upon first sight I am not as you remembered
But my taste remains the same and reminds you of home
You begin to feel your body creeping towards sleep
"Come lay with me." you beckon
I reply with merely an embrace
Something tangible for you to cling to in a silent slumber
You hold me as if I am the key, the answer,
to everything you question.
You hold me so tight I can no longer breathe.
And so I walk
I walk as I have walked years before when my body refuses to let itself rest
I sing with each step
A simple melody to light my path through this treacherous wood
I know where I am going
Without an upward glance I know
I'll find my spot
Amid the wild flowers and the thorned weeds
I'll find that cold curve that holds me,
holds me like a childs crib. An empty rib.
I'll sit there and let the moon pour over me
While those tiny shards of light whizz past
When it becomes too quiet, or my eyelids become too heavy
I will venture back to you
Back to that suffocating love, that beautiful rhythm
"Sweetheart, move over." I'll whisper
You'll respond in a dreamed state by giving me my alotted space.
Arms outstretched, welcoming me home.
Though you don't know i was gone
You'll never know when or where I've gone.

posted by Stolenswan @ 11:01 AM